HEY, HEY, HEY,, I'm back in my lovely little space in the land I was born, Macau China, still in awe of the fact that I actually lived in America this past year, and took on a field I had never even dreamed of having any connection with.....
One year passes so fast if you're not paying attention, but at the same time, so so so so so much can happen within a year. For me, I don't even know where to begin with, from the first awkward "Hi, I'm heather from Macau"?? The challenges and trials that came along the way?? The battles acknowledged and overcame?? The friendships built?? The scary steps of saying "Yes" and opening up?? hahaha,, like I said, much as happened, and maybe, just maybe ;P one day I'll share them with you, But one thing I've definitely learnt throughout this year, one thing that God has constantly been teaching me is that "I'm honestly not that special" hahah,, ok, before you hate on me, hear me out =] Guys, when God calls you to do something or go somewhere, what's your respond? How much time would you need to think? How many times do we say "no, I'm not good enough"?? God switched my path from Communications to Digital Art. Being in America?? Pursing a Master of Fine Arts?? The highest degree in the Art field?? How crazy is that?! But that was exactly what I've been doing this past year... and let me tell you, it's INTIMIDATING sitting in a classroom where everyone has been at least 4 years down the road in this "art" journey, and that is "AT LEAST". Still remember walking up to my digital painting professor the first day of class as he pointed at me and said, "here's my special case" LOL And yes, I had days of wondering whether or not I'm good enough,, was I crazy for coming and taking this step,, and getting art "basic" in a Master's program?? But as these thoughts creeps in, God met me where I was. Throughout this whole year, one huge theme that God continually brought up was :"this is not about you, stop looking at yourself and fix you eyes on me", and let. me. tell. you. that GOD . IS . PATIENT . when he spends 6 months constantly pouring His word over me on this one theme. He took His time and started me off with the book of Esther, I've mentioned this before in my post "If I Hadn't Fail 5th Grade" but I'll bring it up again, cause it's how it started =P "For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” - Esther 4 : 14 - It is a privilege to work along side God, when He calls and invites you to be apart of His plans, don't think tooo highly of yourselves, it's actually humbling to know that God doesn't "need" to use you, if you say "No", He can just ask and ARISE someone else! You are not that special. But then you'll miss out on the adventure/blessings that comes along aside with God's calling =] Ok now, let's say you answered God's call, which I honestly courage you to! If he is calling you to do something or go somewhere, JUST DO IT! So often we start to fear after answering God's calling, fear of not being fit for the job, fear of messing up, fear of what other people think..... But remember, where God guides, He provides. Esther had to go into a 12 month training before even stepping foot in the task God has called her to do!! (Esther 2:12) God took the time to train and prepare her for the job He had called her to do. God is equipping you/me right now! I honestly don't have a clear picture of what I'll be doing exactly? but God knows and am equipping me accordingly. But then it's SO easy for us to start looking around and comparing with those around us and eventually lose sight of who God is in our life and putting our emphasis on the skills we (think we) have. I've been there, and it's draining!! Isaiah 22 : 8 & 11 says this, ".......You looked in that day to the armor of the House of the Forest........But you did not look to its Maker........ " In a worldly mindset, if you're going to war, your confidence is probably placed on the level & amount of weapons you possess; if you are taking on a job, your confidence is placed on the skills and tools you possess. But when we live a surrendered life to the Lord, where should we put our confidences? where should we fix our eyes on? That verse states it so well, they did not look to its Maker, but I pray that you do. Last verse,,,, have you read the Bible and just start laughing and mumble the words, "God you are funny"?? I have, many times hahah =] I read this verse and ran out to tell my sister!! "A highway shall be there, and a road, And it shall be called the Highway of Holiness. The unclean shall not pass over it, But it shall be for others. Whoever walks the road, although a fool, Shall not go astray." -Isaiah 35 : 8- The people walking on this highway are cleansed by the blood of Christ, so if you accept Christ as your saviour and confesses your sins, you are one of those who can pass and walk on this Highway of Holiness =] Ok now when that has gone through your head, check this out "Whoever walks the road, although a FOOL, shall not go astray" this was so funny to me cause in a way it's SO true lol, I'm one of those walking on this road, but I'm a FOOL, I'm CRAZY, I'm WEIRD, I don't know what I am doing, AND IT IS OK!! cause I "shall not go astray"! and you ask why? Cause God is leading me each step of the way. So when the world calls you crazy for doing something God has placed in your heart, fix your eyes on God, fix your eyes on the MAKER and don't look at the "armour" in your house!! =D
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Vicky( your friend)
6/18/2019 08:57:00 am
Nice!!!!
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Pastor Jim
6/18/2019 04:39:08 pm
Awesome! God's truth come alive in your life is a powerful testimony of His love and faithfulness. You are missed here! Look forward to hearing the stories when you come back. Blessings, Jim
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